—> i have begun to monitor and use my mental filter appropriately; which, was originally designed to regulate our idle mood. this i suppose could be accomplished by removing my ability to access oral motor skills in order to produce speech? thus, this rather impractical but artful design is in fact rather useful. yet impossible and would fail, because i still i have my hands, right? this appears to be one of my main forms of communication. you see, i rarely use my mother tongue as is, and the ‘problem’ still prevails with the whole limbic system out of whack and all. a logical person would just change their thinking. amputation is ridiculous. a lobotomy would make more sense, or at least be more effective. but self-monitoring would be key. but how?
